“It’s time to begin to let go.”
I thought I’d never have this conversation
with myself about finding new homes for beloved and much used tapestry looms. I’ve
had many through the last almost 30 years that I’ve been weaving tapestries, and
I’ve been the second (or third) owner for most of them. Each has served me well
in its own way and eventually almost all went to new homes because I added another
loom to replace it.
Eighteen years ago, a 60” loom came into my life, one that
I’ve loved and on which I’ve woven eleven larger tapestries. I remember driving to Virginia to pick up the loom, bringing it home in pieces in the station wagon we had at the time. A friend and I set it up in my studio. Once assembled, I realize there were a few critical hardward parts missing and luckily I was able to get those from another loom company.
I modified the loom one more time a few years ago to add a worm gear to the cloth beam and that made it even easier to use. Since 2008 I've woven large-for-me tapestries on it, the largest being about 60" square.
However, in the
past five years I’ve had several health issues, including two surgeries, a
broken arm, a minor heart attack, and a few other hospital stays for various reasons. Those challenges have made it difficult to weave on my large loom and it took three years to complete the last tapestry,
finished just this summer and mentioned in the previous post.
The large loom has sat empty since then. I've worked daily on my tapestry diary on another loom and also have woven a few things on small pipe looms. But the other
day I finally accepted the reality that I should find a new home for the big loom. Sometimes it takes me a while to make decisions but once I do, I act fast. That
very day I posted announcements on social media, sent a few emails, and, fortunately, a young
tapestry weaver saw it mentioned at Instagram. 
She got in touch and, even though it's a great distance from her home, she’s willing to come dismantle and pick it up. I
know she’ll take the loom into its next decades of service and I’m grateful. I’m
happy for her and for the loom. And, in a way, for myself because I’ll
know the fate of the loom (at least for a few years). Yes, it’s just a piece of
furniture; a bit of equipment. But, as weavers know, whether it’s a simple
frame or one that has treadles and shafts, the conversation between the weaver
and the loom is intimate. By deciding to send this one on its way I’ve taken the
first step in letting go of things and not leaving it all to others to do in
the (I hope, distant) future when I’m gone!
Next week I'll be giving books away and I've already passed on beading supplies to the new textiles instructor at the university. I have lots more supplies and equipment at my studio that I know I won't ever use again in my life. Options for my art making aren't getting more narrow but rather are becoming focused on what I have time and energy to be doing.